Oh God....

Got back from Canada last night, watched shutter island, and then laid there for a few minutes in a quaking fear that my entire life and everything I thought to be true, was all a hallucination. I went to sit by my mother while she took her bath, which was weird, but I kept wondering if she kept all the crazy things I didn't know that I do, a secret from me; That the doctor I didn't know existed told her to for my own good or something. I wondered if she was struggling everyday knowing her daughter was a lunatic and it took every ounce of composure she had to keep from breaking out into tears every now and then because of my condition. I had to watch videos of kittens to fall asleep. Now it's today and it's all over, but I'll NEVER be watching that movie again. Holy shit, fucked me up for rEaLsIes..... Anyone who hasn't seen it want to borrow?