Panic!

My phone is dead and I can't find my cell phone charger. I'm desperately concerned that perhaps people are calling or texting me and I'm not responding and they think I'm an asshole and just ignoring them. Even if they aren't, at least I would know that they aren't. The guilt is deep.

Status Update #1

I'm trying to come up with a new idea for a blog post. I just woke up and thought I hadn't been on in a while and so decided to update.
1. I've become obsessed with this Korean boy band "Super Junior"(I
m listening to them right now.)
2. I've been afraid to sign onto facebook, for some odd reason, so I haven't been on in a long while.
3. Something is up with my throat and when I inhale too fast, or laugh, or yawn, or go more than and hour without coughing, I go into this huge coughing spasm and I can't stop. I've been doing it a lot and I hope I don't start coughing up blood or something, even though that'd be sort of interesting.
4. I NEED MY ASTRONOMY BOOKS NOW!!!
5. I wish I could dance, More than ever.
6. When am I going to have time for runes of magic again?
7. I haven't been very hungry or craving anything this week, well....except for sushi, but I haven't acted on it.

And....that's about all that's been going on in my life.

Easy-Bake

I had to clean the house today, because my little sister's friend was coming over for an easy bake party, which I thought was dull until I woke a few minutes ago....and tasted an easy bake cake.
It was frosted and amazing and delicious, it was soft and moist like nothing I've ever tasted before. I was very excited, to make another one.
But when I went into the kicthen, to pour my batter, THEY WERE MAKING COOKIES INSTEAD!!! I can't even wait until the cookies are done to make more easybake cake, because all the batter is GONE!!! My mom made it into a nasty normal-sized cake!!! NOBODY WANTS THAT!!! *sigh* EVERYTHING is ruined

Yon' Island In The Sun

I take anti-depressants. In the past I've made quite an effort not to miss a dose, because I know I'll crash. A day after I miss I'll get really dizzy and nauseous and then I'll start getting really depressed, what happens after that I'm not sure..now I do. I become really selfish.
Generally I'm very cautious about other people's feelings. Sometimes I won't move in a certian way or say what I'm really thinking because I don't want to upset people, or make them angry or something, however....since I've been off the meds...I fear a shit load of people now hate my guts. I flipped out into tears, because I couldn't find my freaking workbook for school, and then because I had to do chores, they were all in private, but were sufficiently obnoxious and relatively psychotic. I stressed out my mother, which I feel really bad about, upset my brother and I don't want to imagine what all I've done.
I feel like all that I need to do is get back on my medication, and back to my normal self, but then I wonder if who I am now, the natural me without sertraline pumping through my vains, is who I really am. And I wonder: if this is me, then the person who made friends with everyone I know now is someone else...does that mean I have no friends? Has the person they've known taken a break and handed me the controls for a moment making me some form of intruder?
The memories of our times, and everything they've trusted me with are still here, but If I'm not who they think I am, then should they be? Or is this some "true friends don't---blah blah blah" bullshit situation and I "shouldn't worry"?

It Started in my Stomache...

I woke up today thinking about yesterday; all the things I should have said that I didn't, and all that I said that I shouldn't have. All my mistakes made in action, and all those I made through inaction.